Here is the next installment of a series of the Top 11 things I have learned while healing from CSEC. (Yes, eschewing 10 for 11 is an overt Spinal Tap reference. “These go to 11” is the exact volume at which I intend to live my life.) These reflections seek to answer that question of how I survived, and also to provide some insight on common themes that still run through the dynamics of CSEC. My experiences as a survivor and as a social scientist can never be disconnected. This is who I am.
#9 Prioritize your physical health.
Finding trauma-informed primary medical care has been the absolute hardest part of my long-term healing from CSEC. Countless doctors have simply glazed over or bypassed my medical concerns when I tell them that I have an extensive history of sexual, physical, and domestic violence. One OB/GYN even blushed, and simply moved on with her routinized questions.
Mental health is often the primary focus of health care for CSEC victims and survivors. Doctors seem to be comfortable with the fact that violence affects the mind; however, many cannot seem to grasp how the mind and body are connected. Yes, mental health is incredibly important; however, I found I could not truly become healthy until I was able to heal my brain and my body.
Unfortunately, that healing took decades, though, because traditional, Western-oriented doctors were quick to blame me for my medical issues rather than understand how trauma had ravaged my body. I had been sent to nutritionist after nutritionist since I was 18 to address my unusually high cholesterol. As a teenager doctors noted I was “lean and otherwise healthy,” but failed to note that high cholesterol is a symptom of trauma. I was only ever asked what I ate. My safety or other external physical factors were never considered.
One nutritionist gave me a Cheerios-sponsored brochure about how to lower my cholesterol. Ironically, I later discovered that wheat and dairy were part a large part of the reason why I had been sick for so long. Naturopathic doctors diagnosed my myriad of food allergies (wheat, dairy, eggs, and soy). Once I omitted these foods, my cholesterol levels lowered, a skin rash I had had since childhood cleared up, and I lost weight. I was truly amazed. Naturopaths had considered my physical symptoms, as well as my trauma history to identify the root causes of my health issues.
I recently learned from the essential book Gut: The Inside Story of Our Body’s Most Underrated Organ that over half of the central nervous system resides in the stomach. This fact left me completely stunned, and also relieved. Answers do exist as to why I and so many of the CSEC victims and survivors that I have met over the years suffer from gastrointestinal issues even decades after our exploitation ends. Trauma can manifest in our guts as often as our brains. This is just another example of how the mind and body are deeply connected.
I am fortunate enough to now be surrounded by trauma-informed health practitioners. I recently became a research assistant with the Massachusetts General Hospital’s Freedom Clinic, a free health clinic for human trafficking victims and survivors. The clinic’s focus is to provide comprehensive physical and mental health care to victims and survivors throughout New England, as well as to conduct research on how victims and survivors can best access the trauma-informed care we need and deserve.
(Stay tuned throughout this year for the remainder of the countdown to #1.)
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